Thank You Mr. Saint-Laurent for the Puzzle Pieces, Battling Existentialism, the Fragility of Peace, Gratitude, and My Future
My final reflection, and an important update before the Four C’s arc officially starts.
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My final reflection, and an important update before the Four C’s arc officially starts.
Hrm, let the memories stitch, and let the feelings feel.
Well, this one’s a doozy. Read through for some free tips that cost me a lot of time and money to learn.
Before the “good times”: in-laws, old debts, and my I-can-fix-it delusion. Ah, and Meet Wulf: charm, chaos, and a phone I shouldn’t have bought.
Here’s the bonus reel: the part where I defend the man everyone expects me to crucify, admit I didn’t love myself yet, and thank the friend who saw me before I could see me.
Phew, that was a mouthful. Here’s my favorite piece yet.
The first time I realized love could be class warfare, we were engaged in New York and I was wearing his red lipstick.
Welcome to the decade where punk rock solved problems that guidance counselors could not.
For the kid who became the sun while I learned to be human—read this when the world gets loud.
This isn’t polished—it’s me, raw and unguarded, staring into the mirror I usually hold for others.
A love letter to altered states, stubborn art, and the humble pen that keeps me from exploding.
Carl Jung once said, “Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.” I call it therapy. Expensive therapy. With therapists named like strippers.
My therapist disrupts narratives with one deceptively simple question: “What is your goal today?” Recently, my answer has been almost radical in its plainness: I want to belong exactly where I am.
My name literally translates to “Love Song”—which feels like both a burden and a compass. No matter what I’ve survived, I’m here to create connection, meaning, and beauty. Here’s why I’m here.
I’ve lived in three major U.S. cities, and I’m still getting to know Austin. Current consensus? F*ck Austin, Marry New York, Kill LA.
I’ve hit rock bottom, and instead of my usual “grind harder, hustle faster” survival strategy, I’m finally learning to rest. It’s not easy.
Think of me as the cocktail no bartender wants to make, but once you drink it, you’re like, “Damn, that’s strong.”
Some people write love letters to their moms. I’m writing to the wild woman who once ate a random flower on the streets of Seoul and told me to do the same.
Recovery is 5% capacity, 100% honesty. These are my field notes from the trenches of cPTSD work.